Swan and Pookie, oy!

最後一塊餅乾
「我說了對不起嘛…」
「那是今天，不，家裏的最後一塊牛油餅，你知道的。」
「我說了對不起咩…」
「只有牛油餅配紅茶才對味，只有牛油餅。」
「那我馬上開車出去買…」
「不用了，我不想吃了，而且下午茶是兩個小時以前。」
「還是買別的東西可好…？」
「不，用，我現在不想吃任何東西。」
「舍瓦…」
「我只是覺得沒有牛油餅的下午茶，就像沒有啤酒的足球賽一樣的沒搞頭。」
「你以前根本不鳥下午茶這玩意的，別告訴我到了切爾西它突然重要起來。」
「下午茶是很重要，這裏是英國，記得嗎？」
「舍瓦…」
「我真不敢相信你居然沒有把最後一塊牛油餅留給我。」
「那是因為Evan吃了它！你要我怎麼做，把他伸出來的手給打掉？」
「聽起來是個好主意。」
「老兄，他是我們的客人，這實在太離譜了。」
「別老兄我，你，讓他拿走我們的最後一塊牛油餅。」
「他媽的我是，而且Evan被你瞪得吞不下去。」
「我們準備了很多的茶，不是嗎？」
在廚房裏幫忙收拾碗盤的Kaka，突然把湯匙洗得很大聲。
夫妻吵架，他心想，其實很甜蜜的，像他和太太，就沒吵過架，連大聲說話都不曾有過。
倒不是他在埋怨或是什麼的…
嗯嗯，小倆口吵嘴，甜蜜。
就連猴子都看得出來舍瓦在吃醋，吃一隻貓鼬的醋，所以才會一直對天鵝抱怨。
「牛油餅，是午茶的王道。」
「如果我現在替你吹，你可以暫時忘掉那些該死的油麵糰嗎？」

The fog drives me crazy
"Are you happy?"
It's weird to hearing Evan saying this, after so many years.
Oh well, maybe not so many years...
Johnny only smiles back.
"Yes," he thought, "I am happy, indeed."
Why now? The man who sits next to him, came all the way to London, just for asking this question?
Ah, the taxi is coming...

******
"Are you happy?"
"Did you love me?" sounds more like his real question.
Johnny says nothing, only smiles at Evan.
He gained few pounds after the last time Evan saw him and it really looks great on Johnny.
The honey color tan and the shorter hair.....hmmm, suit him as well.
But the most inpressed Evan is, Johnny looks relax. So relax.
Not that Johnny is a physo princess or something, but he is not an easy person in many ways...ok, the most of ways.
Even back when they were still together( Evan rolled his eyes by the word "together"), all those kissings, heavy pattings, angst fightings, make up sex, biking on each other and talking about furure...Evan couldn't remember he saw Johnny like this. Relax. And content.
What is it like , to married someone?
Or what it would be, if Johnny is still with him?
Evan sinks in his own thoughts when staring at Johnny's lips.
Look like cherry, and tast like cherry, too.
"Mongoose boy, our taxi is coming."

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N0004 餗煙供迴向．智慧雲層
書號: N0004 ISBN:
中文書名: 餗煙供迴向‧智慧雲層 EAN:
藏文書名: 頁數: 13頁
作者: 郭倉巴規格: 30*10.5(cm)
譯者: 法護定價: NTD80
分類: 出版日期: 2004/10(再版)

簡介
　　西藏的煙供粗分二類，一類為燃焚諸藥、香、珍寶為煙
作為供養之「桑」，及以燃燒諸食生煙作為供施之「餗」。
藏文字，漢音為 su，餗煙供之主要對象為羅剎、藥叉、部
多、乾噠婆等一類非人及中有眾生，對於較平和之非人及中
有飄游無依之有情以三白三甜等食物為祀祭燃煙供施為素餗
供，若較凶猛暴厲者則更添少許血肉脂等即成葷餗供。本法
目的乃以悲心利他布施為宗，當然仍有以布施而求開解我人
有心或無心中與非人鬼神等所結冤結及償還業債之用意。在
西藏風俗中尤其施食於新亡四十九日內僅能以食物氣味而食
之中有有情多修此法迴之。

N0003 山淨煙供課誦（哩沃桑卻）
書號: N0003 ISBN: 957-30208-3-1
中文書名: 山淨煙供課誦 (哩沃桑卻) EAN: 9789573020837
藏文書名: 頁數: 32頁
作者: 拉尊南開吉美伏藏師規格: 30*10.3(cm)
譯者: 法護定價: NTD150
分類: 出版日期: 2004/5(三版)

簡介
　　煙供之法於西藏諸地流傳極為普偏，新舊諸派各傳承均
有多種廣略繁簡相仿儀軌傳世使用，因近世大成就者敦珠法
王曾慧眼青睞整編本軌使用，本軌遂成寧瑪、噶舉派中最常
用者，以是因緣漢地弟子沿用本軌者亦眾。
　　本軌出自蓮師所授記百位伏藏師中之拉尊南開古美伏藏
師，其所取伏藏名為「持明命成就」，取伏藏地為哲孟雄 (
錫金 )，原先法本僅名山淨供養，嗣後經敦珠法王增補「自
生」部分，全其大備，而本軌則依其修法傳統補入「招財作
法」及「奉供神飲」二部分，更趨完備，修法者可依個人時
間意願及需要取擇加修與否，又另可更動其中一二字及加誦
四業真言即可應用於共通之息增懷誅四業火供。

N0011 具誓總食子略軌(護法供養)
書號: N0011 ISBN: 957-28608-3-6
中文書名: 具誓總食子略軌 EAN: 9789572860830
藏文書名: 頁數: 84頁
作者: 局美多傑規格: 30*10.3(cm)
譯者: 法護定價: NTD400
備註: 出版日期: 2003/10(初版)

簡介
　　世尊住世，說法利生，常有諸大神王、藥叉等天龍八部
，歡喜擁護，於佛前立誓擁護而成護法，大乘諸經典，多有
詳載，歷歷可考。此類立下誓言、守護正法之護法，在藏地
有時稱為「具誓」，今五濁惡世，眾生福薄，外在世間災禍
頻起，內在怪疫橫流、人心欲熾、凶惡殘暴; 難信正法，吾
人欲令佛教長久住世、自利利他，一切努力，多需護法擁護
襄助，是以敬供護法，當為必需，本軌完整包含敏蛛林及敦
珠二種傳規，一切寧瑪派主要護法皆為其中供養對像，是行
者必備之儀軌。
內含儀軌
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2.敦珠法王傳規上師本尊食子儀軌(增補加修)
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什麼是人生
從昨晚見了祖古一直在想…
我的人生是什麼？人說天生我材必有用，我的長處志趣又在哪裏呢？
就這麼巧，想問的人都找不到，只和國瓏約了星期二晚上聚聚…

…惡夢？
昨天連續做了兩次惡夢，也不知倒底是不是夢…
算了，先照久美喇嘛教的來試試吧，他說要是還做惡夢，就call他~:p
每天要練靜坐、修祖古教我們的法哦！
手勢，要記起來。
先是拇指壓在中指和無名指上，然後從膝蓋劃上來，再往外翻，再壓住鼻孔，再吸氣，用力吐氣，一邊三次，先右再左。
祈請蓮花生大士保祐我！

煙供
自從上星期日祖古教我們煙供後，我跑去刷卡買了煙供粉（我真是無能，得刷卡…~_~）
再加上之前請了儀軌，馬上…回家後開始自己第一次的…「練習」？
（不對不對！雖然我是第一次供，雖然我不熟，可是我還是很誠心的！><）
沒想到在中心聽祖古一句句講，好像都沒問題，等到自己打開儀軌一看…呃…該怎麼唸…沒人帶不會唸…-_-b

總算是硬著頭皮用著生硬不自然的調子唸頌完了，這才發現，又要唸譯音，又要解其意，還要同時觀想…真難啊！我唸得很慢，要一邊唸一邊想，30幾頁的儀軌，用了近一小時才唸完…^^b
誰說出家人只知道宗教的事，光他們的記憶力和領悟力就比常人高出許多！

接下來請到了貝諾法王2003年煙供開示那片吸滴，嗯~果然是好東西，跟著釋迦仁波切的唱頌，的確容易多了，不過呢…他老人家的唱頌內容，有些小地方和我從中心請回的法本內容有些不一樣，還在猶豫要不要去問祖古，以哪個為準，照著吸滴唸可不可以…

不過祖古好忙喔，想想真的實在不好意思老拿這些小事去煩他。
雖說如此，昨晚還是又麻煩他了…:p

備忘
祖古說：
諸佛菩薩不會去有香煙的地方，嗯，應該是說有那種味道的地方，祂們不會降臨？
什麼藥師香啦，一堆很多花樣的香，他沒有聽說過，除障香也是，除障香不能拿來做煙供，它有它的用途（可能是修別的法用？）
今天傳的山淨煙供法是上供下供合一，隨時可供，隨地可供，也是蓮師傳下來的法門之一。
昨天灌的蓮師大圓滿的頂，受灌後可以修習所有蓮師和佛母依喜措嘉的法門。
煙供時灑淨要用乾淨的水，燒完的煙灰可以倒在乾淨的地方。
問：何謂乾淨的水，乾淨的地方？
祖古：嗯…*摸頭*
吾乃豬頭也，專問一些奇怪的問題，讓祖古「嗯…」:p
祖古每句幾乎都有解釋，不過呢…我發現下午回到家，晚上剛自己來供煙供就忘了祖古白天所講的所有字句，怎麼辦…祖古我對不起您！>~~~<
薩瑪呀原來是表示秘密的意思啊…*沈思*

我要對祖古有信心，因為他不會傳我沒有用的法，
我要對煙供法有信心，因為藉著煙供可以和更多眾生結善緣；
我要對自己有信心，有信心，有信心…

Blah!
I wondered into someone's LJ and she rec some RPS fic...I remember I read one of them and loved it, the question is...I didn't write down the name and now I can't find it or remember it. Bah.
I just remember that that is a HOT RPS fic and Gale is such a cute dork in that fic.
*sigh*

Tonight
I just camb back from lovephantom's home, we and aristo watched B'z latest live DVD and it's amazing!!
Lovephantom went to those two live last Summer, she said there was a typhoon then, they all standing in the rain through the whole show.
But when you watch the DVD, you can hardly tell that there was raining and the weather was really bad. We think it's might have some visual special effect to fix it. I had to ask lovephantom" Did it stop raining then?" and she always answered "No, it didn't stop raining until 2th day's live was near ending."
Koshi Inaba was awesome and so did Tak san. The live was full of energy, it's hard to believe that Inaba is over 36 years old and Tak san is over 40 now.
I wish I can find a job ASAP and save some money to see their live in Japan!
The later half of the concert were all rock songs, all very fast, no time for gasp, Inaba has powerful lung capacity!
Some who never know who the hell Koshi Inaba is, please connect our best friend "Google" now, you will find out that Inaba is not only a hunk, but a one who really can sing! :)

Current Music: Run by B'z

Yes.
Only Trisky can make my heart ache. There is nobody, nobody.
I had raad lots of B/J fics that make me sad too but somehow many of them lead into a happy ending and I am satisfied with it.
Still...only Trisky's fics make me feel sad/beautiful/love at the same time.
Like the dew in dawn.
I am a happy ending whore, but I just can't skip her writing.
I can almost imagine, after many many years, no matter B/J are together or not, those old memories still remain...
*sigh*

!!!
Somebody got Gale and Thea to sign the first page of Miss Miko's "One Hand One Heart" ?

What?
What?
What!?

Mr. Harold definitely didn't know what that was or he might faint & never wake up.

Should I say this is "amazing"? *curious*

The result of ?
Well, I used to read romance novels hundred years ago and recently, after a phone call with my classmate, Corina, I felt a little bit itchy...
So I went to my best friend and amazing lover: google.com (hee)
and found this:http://fssweb.org/wr/default.htm#
Then I said to myself, "wow", this is a really good site!

Romance novels' market is soooo big, and it's profit is soooo considerable, I start to envy all those old ladys who wrote them and get successed.
Maybe I try hard enough, I can get a tiny piece of that too?
(Ha, ha, ha...)

But the only question is, if I were the writer, I...I don't think I will write a straight couple. I mean a man & a woman. I am already a slash whore now, and only thing that can makes me hot is M on M actions. As hot as Miss Miko's fics. As hot as B/J. I like c***s. Always tender and romance sex scenes is not my favorite now.
Does it means that I like it a little bit rough?
*Die on the floor*

notes.
The dreyfus affair by Peter Lefcourt(book)
I hate tragedy, really, although sometimes it's beautiful.
I love happy ending! Happy ending rules!
Life is too short and bitter, why do I need more tragedy?
A happy ending whore that I am.

The Trip produced by Miles Swain(movie)
Hmmmm...straight guy falls in love with gay guy?
sounds yummy...

Current Music: Juice by B'z

Here is another site with more singing pics.
http://boysofbabylon.com/download/trips/no/